Unseen . . .

As i sit here this morning on my front porch i feel compelled to put thought to writting. Im not still 49 - and as hard as that is for me to actually comprehend it is the truth. A half a century seems like a really long time, yet in the perspective of my life, it seems like a blink of the eye. That thought is scary to me because it makes me realize that i have, realistically, lived over half my life - and that being said, i have alot i want to get done and i had better get moving!

I think that the one thing i have strived to accomplish, yet seem to be having a huge setback right now, is to have a life that is surrendered to God. A life where serving Him, loving Him, and living every day for Him is not something i have to work at or think about, its something that just happens. I have been so blessed by the blog that Angie Smith has been writing: http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/
Angie and her husband, Todd have been going through such a difficult time, and yet, at every turn she is so surrendered to God. She has inspired me so with the way she always hears His voice and i want to be able to hear His voice also. What scares me in saying that is that i dont want to go through anything like she is enduring so i fear making statements like that. What i need to realize is that this kind of thinking comes from the enemy, Satan. He puts doubt and fear in our mind and trys to block our way to God. I need to get over this and just be completely able to surrender. I also need to make the time to grow in my relationship with God. I can never expect to hear from Him if i dont make the time to listen. My prayer right now is that (oh those fears of what He might do) I will work harder on making time for conversation with God, and that i will be drawn to His life-manual . . . The Bible. (And as a side note, Lord, i just pray that you will be present and huge in the lives of Angie and Todd, and also Greg and Nicole Sponberg as they go through this painful time. Only You can bring them the comfort and peace they need so desperately.)

Oh my goodness! My precious daughter is almost graduating from highschool and i dont believe how fast she has grown up. I am proud of her beyond words and i pray, pray, pray that she will make good choices and be sucessful and happy in her life. I know that this month will be an absolute whirlwind and that it will seem like no time at all until i am sitting here writing about her last month of highschool and all the fond memories i have of her.

Unseen . . . i almost forgot what i titled this. In short - His mercy, grace and love flow in abundance to all who acknowledge Him, and even to many who do not. He is only "unsceen" to those who choose to not open their eyes, minds and hearts. When you are open to Him, you just cant miss Him. . . and He love us, each and everyone in depths we cannot even fathom.

Summer is almost here. For that i am really happy (oh, why do i live in Buffalo?)